Sunday, September 27, 2015

Tabbouleh Raw Vegan

I heard of something that really moved me almost to tears. It was a show JOE ROGAN did. 


 Joe Rogan speaks with green beret and head trauma doctor. Alot of UFC fighters- or anyone in traumatic car accident- or in a war with combat, never ever - seem to never get back to the same way, they were before. They are not the person they used to be- and its consistently. They black out, have explosive personality mood swings, they get arrested, are violent, and lose control, and get angry and  they cannot seem to explain it..

This doctor has discovered the reason, he says it is around the brain- when there is any trauma, there is a hormone that is stopped. Its shut down for reasons. You have to hear interview. He says he can fix this easily and all you need is send your blood and pay 60$ for a blood test. The hormone just needs to be TURNED BACK ON... It is MIND CHEMISTRY. Listen to this...its so important! 

I mean, I was in a horrific accident outside my high school on a bike, by a car full on,  after school on the road outside. I was hit very hard, trauma to my head. My brain swelled. I acted like a crazy person for a long time, not remembering a few minutes ago...It was a tragedy. After that, I have never ever been the same person. But I did not know this. I thought people healed.

 I have been blinded to this fact. Until now. Its like I never even knew it, until I heard Joe Rogan speak of this. I have weaknesses, I do not want to talk about. They are personal. And you do not want to put anything negative on the internet.  Now I know what it is. Anyways, when I heard this interview, I cried. I felt like my heart lifted and there was no more weight on it. I know EXACTLY what they were talking about.

My partner was a cage fighter for 7 years in Australia and Thailand. Many injuries, I can see them ..and when he heard this, he felt the same way. You should have seen his face! What Joe is talking about is a REAL THING. We KNOW. Its like a bond we have now. We are going to send him our blood! We are going to follow up and see if we have this hormonal imbalance people with head trauma seem to have. And if it can be cured easily.  I will be eternally grateful for Joe Rogan. 

Here is the interview.

And even though I have not done anything yet, I feel this amazing healing effect, JUST BY HEARING THE INTERVIEW. The DOCTOR was speaking to ME. No one ever spoke about this before in front of me. I know. I know exactly and I can remember when I started to change dramatically. I feel healed. I cried. I did. It meant so much to me. I feel INNOCENT AGAIN! It was like therapy. Like the clouds opening up and the sun shining down warm. I know I am good. 

Thank You Joe we are checking out the DR.

I mean, this is why...this explains so much! It makes PERFECT SENSE. 

I do believe Raw Veganism can cure most things. But some people may need something a little extra in their evolution to a higher being. I want to try this out. Later this evening we will sit down and relisten and make a plan!

Sweet Miso Dressing Raw Vegan

Raw Vegan Salad Dressing SWEET MISO, greens from my garden and corn from the Organic Coop 50 cents sale.


Great probiotic raw drink locally made- so great my nailpolish flies off.

Juicing helper, spearmint from outside, it grows wild.

RAW OATMEAL that has not been heat processed, I soaked overnight the grains, to sprout, and made RAW OAT MILK 

Spiralized Zucchini with Raw Basil Pesto

I had a good week. I went to the mall today and spent two hours and half by myself walking around. I got a red dress. I got some goji berries from GNC. It was so much fun. Jamba Juice was there. I just walked up and down and went into all the shops.

 I seen adult coloring books and I wanted one. 
Adult coloring books are to de stress, and they are mandalas and geometric patterns and really weird artistic ones with cool illustrations... to color in. I wanted so bad. But I knew if I got the book, I would never be able to keep it for myself. There were metallic coloring pencils there too. WOW.

I feel fine I feel good. I am a little skinny. That is great. Finally. Tomorrow I will be making a raw vegan quinoa tabbouleh from MK's book. I am soaking the quinoa now.

My Sproutman. RIP.

I am going to the cacao festival this weekend. I am so happy.

Sunday, September 20, 2015

Raw Vegan Pierogis

Green Smoothie, spinach and banana

 Durian and Banana smoothie- from asian markets

 Raw Vegan pierogis recipe first step
 I didnt have an ice cream scoop
 When they are dehydrated, I made a ton and they lasted 3 months in the freezer, and it made alot.

Ten Minutes Typing.


Just wondering about my philosophy in life.

Do I live in love? Do I make every decision based on love? I use love as the focal point of every question I have. Also, do I allow the day to unfold more on its own, in love?

Also, my diet. I feel like my diet is great, but I do not eat a-lot. I am very skinny.

My food philosophy should be aim for 100% raw all the time. But really raw vegan. Stay away from agave and honey. I have such a sweet tooth. I know I may have a problem with this, and I love raw cacao.

Can I love off love? In my mind? Its capable of so many good thoughts, If I make love my focal point I do feel a-lot of healing. Also meditating on sharing my love to others and meditating on having conversations with people, in my love. In my thoughts. Is this a good way to live? To do every thing within the thoughts of love?

I know I need more organizing in my diet. It always feels like I am out of groceries. I love giving myself recipes and plans to make. I do not know if I want to sprout a-lot. I think I should just eat salads and sprouts and make a good dressing. Its always about survival as a raw food-ist. Always hanging by that thread. That dependence on the organic store, etc.I h o stick with this whole foods organic raw vegan lifestyle. I really have been hanging on despite the world around me just fighting me on this. I have. I decide sometimes maybe its not about the food, maybe its best just not to eat food period.

I have been meditating everyday on the SRI YANTRA and watching youtube videos. Today I felt really connected with all my chakras and were seeking answers in my chakras instead of in my mind.

From the ground up to the sex organs, its grounding. You are like a tree. I wear a necklace too. Here I am wearing it.

I have been eating things like raw vegan coleslaws and tomatoes and basil. Orange juicer I bought. I made some mac nut and bell pepper spread for some black nori today. I had my cacao tea. I love it. I tried giving this up today. 

And what good is a good diet if you fight it and have to use will power etc. It is a strange thing, we should naturally be who we want to be. Without trying. When you think of yourself in your body, do you think of your body, are you conscious of it or are you distracted by any thoughts? Should you be focused on your body with your mind more as a meditation? Like how you want it to look, how it feels, your ideal self, what it feels like.

I meditated today and I found out that I really crave going back to the semi tropics. I do not think days to come is coming, but I know something is, so I stay put. My mother says to get a visa to visit my home country you have to fly to NYC. I want to go were someone loves me and takes care of me? Where is that? Where am I loved?

What would be the best way to live? A fool proof way to always fall back on, to always know the answer, to always have a source of energy and answers to meditate on. To communicate with?
Would it be with LOVE? Loving others? Love sending it out? Love in my words, love in my sentiments and love in my eyes? Love when dealing with others, big and small. Putting love first, before me even, always love first, always analyze it with love. Using love as my god. That would make me a love maiden, a love vesta virgin.

 A love goddess would be Marilyn Monroe, or Aphrodite. MM was all about love. Getting others to love her. Desperate for it. Always on screen, always in the spotlight, always perfect. And a little girl with her pure energy. Joy. Happiness. SOMEONE ELSE. 

My goal in everything should be love. 

Friday, September 18, 2015






Mountain Rainier