Sunday, November 24, 2013



Dates and coconut oil
micro greens and a sweet tahini orange dressing
fresh oj all day long

 I chatted with Nadia for an hour and fifteen minutes straight. Over men. I tried to help her. I think she is pretty cool. Brings me right into her drama which she is feeling pain and loss. I think she did the right thing. I think she is strong.

The wood fire in my living room is so hot. I put in another log. My daughter in the other room, she tripped on her nose and needs special attention. She loves to put on netflix cartoons.

I think it is Thanksgiving. Hurray. Its not really a day  I feel is filled with family so far as everyone is working late tonight.

Friday, November 22, 2013

Fruitarian Art

Here my friend Nadia who is all fruit eater, took a drawing my 2 year old did and turned it into a painting.

Click on it to see. She is amazing. I send her love love love love love from my beating heart. I space time travel to heal her.

Nadia has lived with me before and my life was perfect, it was real. Her energy and mine in the house together and our raw food creations, it was like being in heaven. I truly loved her. I was proud of her. We went on we were on . We both were boy crazy.

I never lived purer than with her, which is why I think having raw vegans around in your energy bands really affects life.

I feel so grateful and I feel love in my heart. Someone cares for me. Someone does. Time and distance does not stop the love.


 It is Thanksgiving in two days. I just do not feel it. I am not going anywhere near a cooked turkey and low energy food. So I guess I can just be Thankful.
Am thankful for

Raw food
My daughters
Where I live
my body
my mind
my soul
power that is mine
My beating heart
My hands
Anais Nin
Classic Literature
My ex
The planet
Our very safe future
Our eternal beings
second chances
the grid
Christ consciousness
other planets we have lived on
Keys to hearts
Being one
Jim Morrison
Marilyn Monroe.
The past
Imaginary lovers
Rich men
Safety and Privacy
Good overcoming all evil

1 love
2 beauty
3 thin
4 happiness
5 good books
6 audiobooks
7 fashionable clothes
8 great access to raw vegan foods
9 juices more
10 watermelon juice



The mother, gives all love. And is love. I know this from being one. Its love and true love at the highest and noblest. But I can be a mother to the entire world. By giving out unconditional love.

I heard Yaron Brock talk the other day and it made perfect sense. I should post it here.

Can I give out love? How do I express that in language? Do I take you on a journey? Do I send out intention and consciousness? It has to go somewhere. This whole life of wanting love. and not realizing that what I need is a void in my life and I cannot give the void to others. I must give them all filling up of their love buckets.

I wonder what my shopping list would be

1 Bananas ripe ones
2 Durian
3 Thai coconut
4 Greens
5 Raw nuts
6 Tomatoes
7 kombucha
8 mmmmmm stay away from agave...
9 oranges for juicing
10 cacao mmm stay away..

I have been meditating. Today I seen myself very clearly.. asking my chakras questions ( red orange yellow, etc all the way to the crown of the head) and I got really weird overly obvious answers that were crystal clear but yet went against my gut, as far as what my desires are..things like I crave moving back to Coral I? Really, I dont think I want to go back there. I want to go where I am loved. Things like people I need to be with, the pictures


Thursday, November 21, 2013

Fruitarian art

I ate oranges, celery, a small salad with sesame oil and salt. I had banana smoothies. Maca coffee.
Having two kids is a handful. When they both cry at the same time, its like its in stereo or an opera. I have to run around, making bottles as fast as I can or heating up some soup for little one. She loves to play toddler games, like dress up baby, wash the dog, etc. These online games that seem Chinese.They are very cute.

It was a cold day. My wheatgrass was frozen outside, I woke up in the middle of the night to bring it back in the house. We have a wood fire. My box of oranges were left outside all night and now I hope they are not damaged. I will make some juice soon and see. I cut the wheatgrass and put it all in a bowl in the fridge.
I watched some tv shows. Played with the baby. I worked too in and out of the workshop. I run the website and read and answer emails and take credit card numbers and process orders, money in the bank!
I am thinking about taking a nice hot bath and sitting in it, relaxing. It is kind of chilly and I am not wearing socks which makes my feet cold. We have a wood fire in the living room, and an electric heater in my bedroom. The wood fire is really hot. We bought firewood earlier this year. Sometimes my chihuahua barks at the door and I get really scared because I am all alone here in the woods. But its nothing. Or maybe we have possums or raccons, who knows. I saw an elk in my backyard once and I always see deer. Here they just come out and eat your apples off your trees.

I am in the bedroom I gave birth in. To my second child who is named after the princess in AVATAR movie. I want Anzaca to do the floors with wood panels. We did my toddlers room and living room. It looks so much better. I cannot stand pests of any sort. Why I do not like carpets. I spray, powder and I have so many pesticides, just in case. I like clean. We have a carpet in here I got at a garage sale for twenty bucks brand new.

I chatted with my beautiful mother on facebook. I love her. She says she has many photos of me as a baby. She is in Paraguay now. I say please please scan them.

I was in the car driving and I was listening to an audio book about a women who escaped the FLDS, the Mormon polygamist cult, with Warren Jeffs. Its hard to listen to as she was 14 when she married and the ultimate victim. It is so sad. Anzaca cannot stand to hear it, he keeps saying quietly, " You got to be shitting me", when the story goes on about her life. I think I have like 8 hours more of this.

I am going to get an expenisve lense and take photos everyday. I want to. I know so many people who make a living off taking photos. I am really good at it. I know how to model my models. I just have a hard time asking anyone for money. I do it for free.

Well I will go now and take a hot bath by myself and if she wants to join me we can do fun things like inspect her owies or brush her hair or sometimes she likes to take a pail of water and dump it on my head.

Wednesday, November 20, 2013


I made to eat my bell pepper pate with walnuts, I made it tonight with mac nuts. Just mac nuts and bell pepper pate. Base. I spread it on nori sheets and top with greens and maybe sliced celery.

Oh I forgot, after gas station and coffee Anzaca got me a box of oranges. I have very few groceries, until Shopping Saturday, so I might juice fast on OJ.

Anyways, I made a raw pie.
But its blended mango with dried mango and some coconut oil. The crust is brazil nuts, almonds from spain, food processed with dates.

Thursday, November 14, 2013

What I made this week that is raw vegan

Jeremy Saffron recipe Bell pepper soup

Brownie crust

Raw cashew dressing

Raw pie crust 

Raw persimmon pie
 Cashew milk
  Chia porridge

Raw blueberry pie 
 Love these
 Raw pie sliced

I am doing great. I am.

Friday, November 08, 2013

I made raw food pies this week

Raw Vegan Pie